I Need Words

I haven't blogged in awhile. I find it a lot harder to formulate words to write when I'm not at the greatest of places,... hence no posts. It's hard enough to admit that things are not the greatest. Half of the time I probably say that "I'm fine" even to those who I know that really care not because I want to hide but mostly because I don't know where to start explaining. 

I'm feeling very stagnant.

Perhaps I'm tired with this year's instability with all the traveling between two cities, constant switching of gears of being a student and being a teacher,.. Perhaps it's adjusting to changes in lifestyle, communities, stage of life... 

Whatever it is, David Crowder's "I Need Words" seems to express something resonates with me... 

I need words as wide as sky

I need language wide as this longing inside

And I need a voice bigger than mine

And I need a song to sing you 

That I've yet to find

I need you, oh

I need you

I need you, oh

I need you

To be here now

To be here now

To hear me now

To hear me now

Same lesson

This past year has been an interesting one for me.

In many ways, it has been enriching, challenging and even pinnacle to some extent, but it has also been quite tiring and draining, mostly due to being constantly on the move. Particularly, it has been hard to commit to a community, a spiritual community. Even during my undergrad, it was somewhat challenging as I often found myself trying to love and serve both communities in Toronto and Queen's. However, this year has made it even more difficult to do either. 

This has created a longing for more of a community, a place to serve and more importantly, a place to grow and be challenged in my walk. I've been taught and reminded of this over and over again (it's definitely in competition with "trusting God," "surrendering to God," and "loving God above all else," lessons) of just how important community is. As much as we spend that time with God in our own personal time, that time spent in fellowship with other believers is so crucial. It's the place where we can put into practice the things we learn (follow up our faith with deeds), be tested of the Christ-like character we are to develop, use the talents and gifts we've been given, and most importantly, experience God and all of his love, mercy and power. 

I long for His presences amongst his believers. I can't wait to be back in one place and not move around for a bit. 

No wonder Scripture emphasizes so much the importance of keeping the peace and love of Christ within the body. 

"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. 

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." Col. 13:12-17